I started this de-cluttering project 2 weeks ago to rid myself of all these old items that I no longer want or need. At the beginning this seemed overwhelming as I starting taking things off the walls and throwing out things I never use. The process was more emotional then I originally thought it would be but a calm came soon after. Somehow removing furniture and extra crap I do not even need has gave me a peace inside, my mind has followed suit. With all the thoughts and what if’s that are keeping me stuck somehow they have been less and less. While I am still a MESS, I am enjoying it more. So what, I have no answers, who says I need to. Who says I have to have everything together? No one, that’s right I do not have to, and I can enjoy the fact that I don’t. I am slowly learning to be in my feelings on my own and deal with my own issues. I am using no distractions to keep me from handling whats happening in my life anymore. For right now, I am just allowing myself the time to heal and feel what I need to. Eventually, I will be ready to rebuild and I am exciting to see what happens next.
In the meantime, I am going to do some projects around my house to spice it up. Lets hope these pinterest ideas come out as planned, if not at least I will have some fun trying.
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